"pre-PRCP symptom"

Dear Blog,
after weeks and weeks of long waiting,the PRCP attachment venue and time is finally out.. it was a painful period of time when everyone alr know where they are going execpt for SGH students, i guess there are too many of us that why there is a delay in releasing the depts.. nevertheless, it is FINALLY out!

where will i be going?
Ans: A & E(very first batch to go there for PRCP!)

Am i happy?
Ans: Yes (It is one of my choice!!!)
No (my usual attachment group are not with me! losin them days after days!)

Well, frankly speaking, my feeling are really hard to describe now and i finally understand the real meaning of "pre-PRCP symptom"...Lets just state that every student nurses have to go thru this phase.. i learnt something new today and would wish to share it with everyone: "If i could survive this time round, i would become stronger the next time round"

To all my nursin friends who happen to be reading now, for the next 6 weeks, things may not go well as wat we expected and we do not have each other to encourage at the end of the day but bear in mind, we have come so far and the path to success is just 6 weeks away! hang on it there! be stronger and get survive this time round!

signing out
Xin
~encouragement is all i need now~

~otc~exam~300~

Dear blog,

~OTC~

Last sunday(18/3/07) was the second theoy phase for the otc. We, as instructors, had so much fun in the brigade room.. all these began with Yau Leung sir(Our DM for o3 batch:my batch) who bring out the 03 OTC pictures with our innocent faces in it.. well, at least it brighten up everyones' day rite? haha..

Looking at the trainees during PT time, i cant help but think back of my days in OTC as a trainee.. the days was really tough for me back then, heavy loads such as O level(SARS period), OTC(1 year due to SARS), parents, Corp.. thank god, i manage to survive in the tough trainin and passed out successfully to be an officer.. alrite back to the current trainees, should i say it wasnt their luck ba.. this year committee are make up of mostly guys(pls note that most of the guys here are train in OCS in army!!!) with just 7 females instructors.. the PT was really a 'killer" one! from where i was standing, i could see all the sufferin faces in the trainees.. omg, i feel like i am in the army man.. even the guys are shiverin from the PT, can u imagin the gers doin the same things?

Well, i must say that this PT is not a bully session but our aim is to train them physically and the most importantly is to bring them close as a course.. want them to encourage each other (just like my batch) and i believe we do achieve wat we want!!! way to go.. committee!~

~Exam~

Omg! this sems only got two paper but this 2 paper seem to be killin me alot.. have been eatin alot of chocolate to keep me going.. help... ~tough time dun last, tough man do!!! will always remember this! thanks alot Yau Leung sir!~

~300~

went to catch 300 with kelvin last sat.. although it was a super bloody show.. somehow or rather i do enjoy the show, ya.. i agree all guys should watch this!!! thanks mates for promotin this show to me.. :)

Alrite shall stop here now!

Signin out

Xin

(~Study Mode~)

busy weekend

Dearest blog,
i finally find back the feelin which i kinda of lost for sjab.. let me explain..
First aid competition is always the busiest event for Zone 6.. this year is no different(esp all junior involve and the chairman is a ger from my batch..more work to do!) as usual, last min work and arrangement is required.. this also include walkin from HQ to bugis(we walked total of 3x man... to n fro..) and that day we stayed in HQ till 2am.. wait a min, the bonding and the hardwork did help me find back the feelin.. izzit? well.. somehow or rather, i feel it is worth man..
~Win a goal to all committee members!~

But overall, this weekend was really a tiring one:
fri--> stayed in HQ till 2am(last min work and arrangement required)
Sat--> First aid com( wake up @7.30am, 9am-7pm, reach home @ 11pm,slept @2am to prepare for otc tmr)
sun--> OTC (wake up at 5.30am, 7.30am-7pm, fall into coma when reach home @ 11pm)

BUT, i enjoyed what i am going thru even with the nick call "ms panda" haha..

Got injury this time round, went back home with a swollen n painful ankle.. dunno what is the cause of it! didnt fall or sprain it.. just turn out to be swollen and painful! arrg.. bed and home bound for next few days.. ~help~

well, there are also disappointment that i am facin durin the weekend.. shall not talk much in here.. but i choose to believe that u guys dun meant to hurt me but just that u guys dunno how to tell me..

gotta study... exam next week..

Xin
~in pain..~

~Last week of school~emotional week?

Dearest blog,

Sittin here, in front in my com, thinking of the events that had happened for the past few days.. everything seem to be moving very fast.. esp when the tot of leaving school and entering working life(3 yrs pass so fast!) Everyone seem to be so emotional in school.. photos taking everywhere.. hugging and many more.. i hate this feeling alot, but what can i do? when the clock turn 11am tommorow.. our school life is over and all of us will be going to the respective hospital for our PRCP..

shall not be emotional in here.. :)

BUT that is not going to be the end of my education journey!!! i do make plans for my future!

1. Upon grad, work in SGH for the next 3 yrs.. (to gain experience)

2. Go oversea to take my degree with Hema!

3. Come back to SGH and be clinical instructor..(will go for education line..)

Lastly before i end this update, i would like to say some words to the following:

~Zhong Lie~

Sorry that i didnt go down to visit you due to exam and sjab events.. hope u get well soon.. (the op is a great success, dont worry!) oh ya, i promise that i will go plan the dinner gathering once u discharge.. vegetarian steamboat?(we promise to go last yr remember?) well.. just leave it to me!

~NR0403~

If u guys(NR0403) are reading my blog rite now(KPO!haha), i do like to wish u guys a bright future ahead.. No matter how our future will be like, hang on in there! the best is yet to come.. i believe strongly that our dreams of becoming WARD SISTERS, CLINICAL INSTRUCTORS(me.. me.. me!!!) and others will all come true!!! Take care to all..

signin

Xin (hungry.. forget to eat dinner again)

Do i really change?

Some of the common questions and words i get:
1. Is there something bothering u?
2. Is everything fine for u?
3. No matter what happened in the past, is all over.. dun think too much..
4. U seem to have lost ur smile.. No longer the cheerful ger that i used to know...
5. U seem to be gettin thinner n thinner...
6. walkin zombie?

Well, do i really change?
Yes? No? Maybe? i dunno..
all i know is that--> i no longer enjoy what i used to like.. and i do agree that i have lost the smile in me!

i been trying very hard to forget the past and find back my smile.. but a call from Jeremy has proved to me that it gotta take a very long time.. Well, i really wonder how long too.. i hate what i am going thru rite now..

PLS PLS PLS.. let me get over it soon..

at the same time, i wish to say 'sorry' to mr A n mr W.. what i can say to u both is that i am not ready for another relationship at the moment and we dun suit each other, i do hope that u guys understand.. most importantly, i dun wish to let it affect our work in OTC 2007.. sorry once again.. may u guys find ur true love..

signin off
xin (in deep tots..)

Chinese New Year 2007

Let me update on my movement this CNY..

Eve? after the buffet, we played mahjong till 4am

First day? went to my grandma's place lor.. as usual! haha.. But this year, i got more income! haha.. dun say i bluff small kids(sec 4 and above) money leh.. well, i should say my luck is better this year ba.. Someone has to keep the ball rolling, being the oldest among them, so no choice but to be the banker(blackjack).. wait a min! what about Ah hor? he seem to be much much older than me! haha.. okok.. i admit i won $154 that morning.. but i gave half of it to my younger bro.. surprise? nah, he help me in collecting n giving money.. haha.. i got no pocket ma..

this year PIG lucky animal is... TIGER!! wee... my house got so many pigs and tigers...

Sister n younger bro (PIGS!) Mother n me (TIGERS!)

Second day? went to temple in the morning then to KTV with Sjab friends @ cine.. this time round KTV session wasnt with the normal clique.. new ppl like alan! so gan tong! he waited for me at summerset MRT station for 1 hour plus.. well, i realise that SJAB ppl nv seem to be on time when there is no event.. haha.. does that include me?

During Dinner time, Jin li and howard joined us.. well, i seem to be joining the wrong group of ppl tat day.. no interesting topic execpt marriage and houses! Jin li and howard, mary and Gary, Stella and her BF (3 pairs) getting marry this year.. june and july.. wee..must start to plan the attire le.. haha... so happy to see my friends "xin fu".. when ask: "what is my ideal age to get marry?" i just answer with a smile.. " how to get marry when there is no one beside me?"

We too went to view Jin li and howard new home! so envy..

third day? My secondary school mates r out at my place(tigger gathering) i think this year, i lost count! most of them bought their girlfriends.. think about 24? but they cant believe that i am single.. haha.. after so long when we last met..nvm, something cant be rush, and i know if i do so, that is not the one i really want..well, let fate play its part ba.. after all, this year FEMALE TIGERs r will have alot of love stories happening.. haha.. we shall see if this is true! i hope to find a long lasting de..

good time end fast..but will be meetin them again this sat(Ade's 21st birthday!)

Alrite, days of slacking is over, time to start back on the 3 projects again and this sunday onward, will be tied down by officers course and nursing dept stuff.. Yawn..

signing off

Xin

(hungry mode)

Chinese New Year Eve~17/2/07~

What am i doing in here at this time? Well, taking some time off my projects to update my blog and of cos to eat some "snake"..Really wonder how this year new year will be? same as before? well, i dunno that for sure.. This year there wont be any steamboat tonight, we have change to muslim buffet instead cos every year the preparation, cutting, set up and washing make everyone busy and headache! Wee.. i think i getting lazier and lazier.. haha

Last night, i was dragged by my mum to Jurong west market(family business there).. so packed and crowded! but despite the heavy flow of ppl, no matter where we go, there will be my family members all around! (we rulezzz jurong west?) my sister's boyfriend who live in jurong area was told by my sister that :"u beta be careful! i got alot of spy in here!" haha.. this make us laugh till ache.. u should have seen his face! We went to my grandma place @ 1130pm.. As usual, ah ma was there to start the Q & A session (haha).. nothing much to comment in here execpt that i must be mentally and physically prepared for the actual day! more KPO aunties and uncles will be there.. ~pls DNR me!~

When i reached home about 12 plus, i was surprised to receive msg from Kelvin in MSN, ever since that day i ask him to read my blog, he seem to disppear! but i must state clear that i got no special intention of askin him to read! just that i want him to know that it is alr in the past, we must let go so as to move on and i dun wish to lose him as a friend! back to the topic, he told me that his relatives keep askin him where am i.. haha.. i really wonder what he reply but he does not want to share leh.. This is the different btw him and ahmad! ahmad wont keep things away from me.. cos ahmad know it wont affect me and i will definitely make fun out of it.. well, i guess he must have his reasons for not sharing it..nvm, it ok.. He also mention that my family members must be hating him rite now.. if u r reading rite now, i can reassure u that they dun, cos i didnt spoilt the impression u left for them, what is the point of point fingers at who is at fault? (at time i really feel that my thinking is really different from others.. haha.. maybe i dun wish to see more ppl get hurt or what ba..)

shall end here le ba.. got so many things to prepare for tmr such as preparing my two black n white dresses and many more..

~back to projects working~
Xin
14.17 hrs