Do i really change?

Some of the common questions and words i get:
1. Is there something bothering u?
2. Is everything fine for u?
3. No matter what happened in the past, is all over.. dun think too much..
4. U seem to have lost ur smile.. No longer the cheerful ger that i used to know...
5. U seem to be gettin thinner n thinner...
6. walkin zombie?

Well, do i really change?
Yes? No? Maybe? i dunno..
all i know is that--> i no longer enjoy what i used to like.. and i do agree that i have lost the smile in me!

i been trying very hard to forget the past and find back my smile.. but a call from Jeremy has proved to me that it gotta take a very long time.. Well, i really wonder how long too.. i hate what i am going thru rite now..

PLS PLS PLS.. let me get over it soon..

at the same time, i wish to say 'sorry' to mr A n mr W.. what i can say to u both is that i am not ready for another relationship at the moment and we dun suit each other, i do hope that u guys understand.. most importantly, i dun wish to let it affect our work in OTC 2007.. sorry once again.. may u guys find ur true love..

signin off
xin (in deep tots..)