Dear blog,
It has been a tired week.. since the 30/12/06.. i didnt have enough rest..all weekdays and weekends seem to be occupy by attachment, school and SJAB.. well, isnt this the life i want after i breaking up? but somehow, i started to feel drain out.. ~help~
MOOD
I wasnt in my best mood today, all along i tot that i have let it go and wont let it affect me but somehow, till today then i realise that i am still bluffing myself..all these sad feeling suddenly come back when Xuan suddenly mention about him, the feeling is really hurt till i could feel tears nearly roll down again~pls pls pls.. dun hurt me again k and help me step out of this painful area..To Him:i dunno if i really hate you or not.. at times, i do and at times i dun.." i also strongly believe that time can heal everything, even this painful process that i am going thru..As for relationship, well.. there is no one in mind rite now.. i dun wish to hurt anyone by taking anyone as a substitute.. For now, i wish to put all my attention on my career and sjab.. let put all my love to all my patients..while waiting for mr Rite to appear.. ~i am sure everyone will agree with me on this point!~
FUTURE PLAN
After thinking for a few days, i finally come out with a conclusion: i decided to go for oncology.. like i say in my msn nick "area of interest n friends VS parents' disapprovement n health issue", by saying this, everyone would expect a hard time makin this decision.. of cos, i didnt mention it to my parents.. for i did not want them to get worry for me! i know where n what i am heading to.. Cancer patients are alr so pitiful and may even leave this world any moment, dont anyone would want to make a different in their life? Yes, i do.. i want to make a different in their life.. N it will always be my Nursing aim n goal for all my patients..
When fillin up the form, alot of tots come to me.. such as friends going to be separated to different hospital and even different wards.. i going to miss all my fun time with them.. esp my best sister, Hema.. N not forgetting xuan, latha, fen fen, mus and sara who we really went thru alot together during our attachment days.. To all: "although we have to separate after working together for 3 yr, we will always be close buddies.. let THOSAI be our witness! cheers mates!~i will miss those days when we suffered from all the case studies, scoldin, facing death and enjoyin the praises from sisters, waiting for the arrival of the newborn, seeing our patients going home and even "matchmake" during attachment.. most impt, i will miss u guys...
sign out
Xin
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